So.. ya know in season 1 when JD is dating Alex?  Yeah.. I didn’t think you did.  He is on call a lot and doesn’t get to finish a date with her because of always having to go to the hospital.  Well he finally plans a date where he can have an ending with her and he gets so tied up and lost in what happens in the hospital, that he misses the date and the opportunity with his lady. 

You know.. whenever I make it to where I’m going in medicine… I’m worried that will be me.

Sometimes.. I don’t even feel alive unless I’m at that hospital.

Tonight.. I felt alive.

Fun fact:

Don’t lie to me. Ever. About anything. I don’t care how big or small. Just don’t do it.

When you do…I lose all trust and respect for you. Forever.

The only thing I can say

Is what a fucking day.

But we live for days like this, don’t we? I surely do. When you have to race to CT for a code blue. When you’re setting up for intubation here and there. When its so busy you can’t think about anything else. When a 12 hour shift turns into a 16 hour shift. When you get home the physical and emotional exhaustion is so overwhelming that sleep is the only thing that can comfort you….if that’s even possible.

This is what I do.

Well.. I guess I’ll be like everyone else.. I feel like 2012 is going to be a good year for me.

I know I’m only 24 hours in but today, on a hangover and no sleep and a busy ER, I was happy again.  I was in a great mood and made the best out of what I could.

Some changes need to be made in my life and I’m going to start making them.

So… here’s to hoping you all have a great year… and hoping I do too.

Cheers to 2012.

So… I seen Jessi tonight.  My ex girlfriend.  For the first time in six months.  We talked a little.  We didn’t get to talk a lot.. we were both busy and she needed to get back to her daughter.

For the little amount of time that we spent together… it felt like we never missed a beat.

It was really great to see her…

My thoughts??  They are everywhere….

Alright….

2… maybe 3 hours of sleep on a couch and a 12 hour shift do not mix.  But I’m mixing them in about an hour.  I’m one cup of coffee in.

Cue the coffee!!!

Could be an ugly day…

I’m already going on rants and it’s only 10am here in the east.

I have to be approved for a certain three classes in the spring by Dr. Short.. the chair of the program.  Well the form you have to submit says turn in unofficial transcripts from other colleges you have attended.  All my grades from the other schools I have attended are on my degree works audit.  I was told by an assistant that I should be all right because my grades are on there.  Apparently that was a bunch of bullshit because I received an email this morning instructing me to act immediately if I wanted to be reconsidered for the classes.  It was such a rude email and it has pissed me off this morning.. it says “the form instructs you to do this!”  Well no shit… I was told I would be okay… but the way the email was worded and the way it comes across is just fucking rude.  I’m already pissed off enough that I could have been a nurse twice already if someone would just let me in the fucking program.  I’ve been working my ass off at a hospital for two fucking years and some people they let into the program can’t even stick their finger in their ass.

This doesn’t bode well for work today either… because I have an on going feud with our lab… because…. well because they fucking suck.  We argued hardcore last week and they wouldn’t let go over there because I probably would’ve punched the guy in the fucking face.  So I guess we will see what will happen today…

I’m just pisses me off that my morning and day have been ruined by a rude ass email.  I don’t care to go get a couple of transcripts and turn them in to be reconsidered.  Just say it a little nicer.. please.