6/1/12

Today… has been one of the most exhausting days in awhile.

I finally got out of my shitty apartment in my shitty neighborhood into a better place today.

I have been up and at it since 7:45 this morning.  And my dad just left.  We have been working all day.  It hasn’t been a good day either.  We got clorox on my couch… I was pissed.  My entertainment center crumbled as we were loading it… that was funny haha.  I destroyed my HDMI cord for my tv and then the new tv stand I bought.. didn’t have any screws to assemble it.

So.. we dried the couch.  Threw the old entertainment center away and took the tv stand back to walmart for an exchange.  Also, I bought another HDMI cord.  It could’ve been longer… I didn’t know how short 3ft actually was.

I’m finally settled for the night.  I still have to get everything else situated.  That all will come next week.  I can’t wait to be finished.

Am I really?

So.. a lady I work with.  One of my closest friends inside the hospital… this woman is like a mother to me.

She told that I was in love tonight.

I do believe she’s right.

Have I kept it from myself for the last 10 months?

Well… after that long trip back from Jersey… let’s see it was about 12 hours all together and about 10 of those driving a car without cruise control.  And I must inform you… if you have never driven a car without cruise control on a long trip… say over 300 miles…. don’t try it.  It is not fun.

Anyway… after the long trip… it seems I have re-aggravated my knee.  I went to work tonight and that has made it worse.  There’s some tingling going on in my foot… which I do not really care for…. so I’m wondering if swelling is to follow which would probably indicate a DVT.  But I hope not.  Also.. there is some major pain on the lateral side and exactly where the meniscus was removed.  I think I’m going to go back to the doctor.

I am rambling and it’s probably because I just had about 11.25mg of loratab.

That will stop the pain.  For now.

Well.. I hate this…

I hate being caught off guard by my feelings.  I really did not expect to feel this way.

I feel a lot better after some pain medicine.

These last three days of work have really drained me.

Sunday was one heck of a day… my morning was amazing and we all were just cutting up having a good time.  Then, in the blink of an eye… I was doing CPR in a car and then riding a stretcher through the ER continuing CPR.  The guy lived… so I feel good about that.  It’s always a good feeling when you save them.

Then today was non stop.  From start to finish.  I worked 13 hours and could’ve worked more, but I was told to go ahead and go home.

Well I just wanted to rant about these last 3 days… and I’m kinda loopy off my medicine.

Good night.

I feel like people who say “so happy… I love my life” or something of the sort… are trying to convince themselves instead of telling people that they are really happy.

Also, I kinda laugh a little.  Because I think it’s sarcasm.

If I love my life at the moment.. I just live it instead of wasting time telling everyone.

Just a thought.

I’m so ready to leave for California.  I do not want to be in this class right now.

I’m not even paying attention.  I’m doing work stuff and talking to my brother.

Let’s be honest.. I was lost on day one.. this professor is terrible.. and probably because I sit on tumblr during lecture.

Oh well.

I wanna meet someone.

Not someone to date, but if the opportunity were to arise I would consider it.

But I just wanna meet someone new and fun. Someone to hang with. Maybe have a lot of stuff in common and enjoy hanging out together.

I just wanna meet someone new.